The Art Of Trying Too Hard

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Having studied art for most of my academic life, I have always found myself drawn to creative people.
University was the best time for me because I was associating with like minded individuals. People who strove to think outside the box; push boundaries and create art. 

Intelligent people who had interesting points to make but knew how to relay them humorously, without pretension. 
We wanted to be exceptional in our own uniqueness... Our only competition: ourselves. We worked hard and we tried even harder! 

Graduation day, disguised itself as a ceremony of achievement. In actuality, it served as a very loud wake up call. I had been abruptly snatched from this artistic cocoon with no idea of what it would really mean to be confronted with "the real world".
Going into the work field, I was bombarded with attitudes which not only supported the mundane, but quite frankly exalted it! 
Anyone who dreamed big was deemed unrealistic.

Years later, I created my little youtube bubble of BisaNation. It was my place to express myself and stamp my unique take on what everyone else was doing. However, I was confused by a small number of individuals' who held an absolute distain for individuality and nonconformity.
In my makeup videos and especially fashion videos, I was deemed on many occasions as "doing the most" or quite simply: Trying too hard.

Unfortunately, a lot of people are drawn to what is accessible and easy to replicate. Well, I personally like to be inspired.  I enjoy watching someone be who they are, knowing I can never compete with them and they can never compete with me. That's the awesomeness of human beings!

Maybe it's just me, but I tend to find it quite arrogant to expect an audience to take time out of their lives to listen or watch you, without making it worth their time. 

When someone "tries too hard", even if they're not quite pulling it off, they should be applauded for trying. 
It's not easy to celebrate your own uniqueness and go against the status quo. The first people bold enough to do so, usually go through a lot to pay that price. Yet they are the ones who set the standard and open doors for everyone else. 

The fact is, yes I do "try too hard"! Too hard for my own good because I always go beyond what is necessary with very little to show for it... Yes I am "doing the most"! I'm doing the absolute most I can because that's who I am! I love the exceptional! My mind remains in clouds far beyond where my eyes can see and I refuse to be mediocre to please anyone. 
Everyone we have ever admired or celebrated, refused to settle for average- so why should we? 
We are all born unique by the very definition of the word and should not shrink for anyone! 


Dare to dream, Be free, be unique! BE BOLD! xx



Images, Self portraits
Gloves, DIY 
Necklace, charity shop 

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FashionFIX | Nostalgia & New Beginnings

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This features an outfit which is near and dear to my heart because it's the first of two. The first dress I ever made, and the first fashion/ beauty video I uploaded when I decided to start my channel!
It really represented a new beginning for me. One which was both exciting and scary.

For some reason, it feels very significant revisiting this outfit. I have the same feelings newness and excitement. Like a welcomed change is approaching.


When my team and I went out to shoot this outfit but the weather was pretty rubbish and it was really hard to get a shot. At the time I felt like we didn't have any good photos. It was so cold and we'd been shooting another outfit for hours, so I called it quits. 
It wasn't until I got home and saw the results, that I wished we'd stayed out there longer because we didn't have any shots of the shoes or the back of the dress, which has a completely different print.

Months later we went back and instead, I decided to shoot a FashionFIX video which is a fashion film series I have on my channel.

I'm really happy with the way the video turned out and can't wait to shoot the next one!
Check out the links to both the FashionFIX video HERE & my first youtube channel upload HERE. 







DIY Leather Jumpsuit

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I can hardly believe how long it's been since my last post! It's shameful really because I've had so many posts lined up for a long time but sometimes life gets in the way...

Anyway, I made this faux leather jumpsuit a few months back and I'll talk about it in my next post but for now I wanted to just share the images my team and I created. 
The photos were shot in my dining room and I'm so pleased with the way they turned out! 
We also shot a Fashion video which is live on my channel right now!
Please check out the video and let me know your thoughts!

Jumpsuit, DIY,
Belt, River Island
Shoes, eBay + DIY
Earrings, eBay
Bracelets & Rings, Primark


Photography, Trevor Andre James
Creative Directing & Digital Retouching, BisaNation 
Assistant, Miriam Awah


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Sleek TRUE COLOUR LipsTICK REVIEW (14 SHADES)

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Early last year I uploaded a video to my youtube channel, reviewing my Sleek True Colour lipstick collection. 
I didn't do a blog post at the time but I thought I would it share the video to help anyone thinking of purchasing Sleek lipsticks.
I've added some stills from the video but be sure to watch the in-depth review and 14 colour swatches.

The Lipsticks mentioned;

Amethyst
Exaggerate 
Mystic
Amped
Fuchsia
Baby Doll
Papaya Punch
Heartbreaker
Stilletto
Cranberry 
Vamp
Dare
Naked
Mulberry




Video stills below...






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Happy New Year!

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Happy new year everyone! Here's to an awesome 2016!

Last year was a bit of a strange one for me; where everything and nothing happened! 

I'm hoping for awesome things to happen this new year but I know that above all it takes the right mind set to create the changes we want to experience in life... 
I don't usually do resolutions but I'm adamant to become more bold, more positive, trust God more, attempt to be more patient and believe in myself a lot more. 

The hardest thing for me personally is to trust my journey and fully believe that my steps are ordered... Mainly because I'm a control freak! I struggle with not knowing what's going on and what will happen. 
I guess that's why I love creative activities. They allow me to feel a certain amount of control whilst  giving me that much needed balance, because too much control can inhibit the organic creative outcome.
I believe that ultimately, we don't really create anything. The things we create exist already in another realm and we as creative beings, merely do our best to interpret and translate what has been revealed to us. Sometimes in pieces, sometimes in its entirety.

When I make something, I put in the work, while allowing it to become what it is supposed to be. Whether I'm writing a song, creating a piece of art, whatever...


Please excuse my ramblings but this is why I love blogging, writing helps me to figure things out so please bare with me... 

So I guess my conclusion is, I need  to approach life like I approach the creative process. Put in the work, but relax and enjoy the process. Understand that the result is destined to be great if I stay on track.
It will turn out beautiful and if it doesn't, I change it or try again.

Perseverance, patience, enjoyment and most of all to be BOLD!xx

Current Mood...

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It's getting to that time of year when I just want to wear dark colours and very shiny things! I'm looking to make some new clothes and this mood board is a source of inspiration.
It has a whole lot of Fausto Puglisi, Balmain and a little David Koma.

my Illustration Process

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Drawing is one of those things that I really enjoy doing. I find it very therapeutic and anything I can do whilst watching a movie, is always a plus for me!
It's a skill I used to practice on a daily basis as a child. However, after my degree in animation (some many years ago), I had been put off of the very idea of drawing and my passion for it has only been revived in the last few years.
During my time away from art I think I started to feel a bit unsure about my skills. Almost as if I may have forgotten how to draw.

Whatever your natural ability levels are, drawing/ art is a skill which requires practice and for me I feel like there is so much more to learn.

In the past, my favourite medium was acrylic paint on MDF board. Now I use Photoshop- which is so ironic because I was hopeless with computers during my whole animation degree!

I like to begin with pencil on paper because it gives me that hands on, organic approach that I'm accustomed to. I then take it into photoshop, building up layers of tone and texture. 
At the moment I don't have a drawing tablet so I use my laptop keypad for everything. I can't wait to use a stylus pen because I'm sure that will speed up the process immensely and make it much easier to control what I do.

People often ask how I produce my images so I thought I'd share some images with you to demonstrate my creative process with you.


















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How To Be a Badass!

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As I make that slow descent into the underworld of social media; I am always surprised at how a short trip to Instagram can begin with a hint of curiosity. Turn into a slight sense of self doubt, and gradually become an assertion of how insignificant I am and everything I do is. 

In hind sight it always seems like a harmless drug... but the truth is, if you stay there too long it can become a poison which seeps into the mind, soul, all the way to the spirit. 
Comparison really is the thief of joy and it's so important to guard your heart against anything that threatens to attack it. 
Small doses of social media can be inspiring or serve as light entertainment- submersion can lead to the overpowering deception of insecurity.

Then I make a dress or do something creative and I remember that I'm awesome! 
...I'm just being honest... It be like that sometimes! Ha!
Don't worry, I think you're awesome too! Don't allow Instagram to make you forget! ;)

Be BOLD!xx


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